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The first rumble did not come from the sky.

It came off the lake.

The Canadair water bomber burst from behind the wooded point, flying so low that several campers instinctively ducked their heads before cheering. The aircraft skimmed Alder Lake, scooped water in a long plume of spray, then climbed away, leaving two silver wakes behind it.

On the beach, phones went up at once.

— Look at that! It’s coming back!

Children were already running toward the dock. Regulars explained to newcomers how the plane would shave the surface before turning back toward the mountains. One father hoisted his son onto his shoulders. Two teenage girls abandoned their paddleboards to film. Near the marina, Curtis Bell, a recreational vehicle and equipment dealer, raised both arms and conducted the Canadair’s pass like an orchestra.

To them, it was the first show of the Labour Day long weekend.

To Diane Vautrin, it was already something else.

She slowly closed the arrivals register.

Far to the southwest, beyond the firs that sealed off the valley, a grey-brown column was rising with a steadiness she did not like. At its base, it still blended into the ridge. Higher up, it widened into a cloudless sky.

The Canadair came around again.

No one was watching the smoke. Everyone was watching the plane.

Diane put her smile back on.

— Welcome to Alder Lake Campground.

The couple in front of her handed over their reservation.

— You’re full? the man asked.

— Since last night. Site twenty-seven. Marina’s on the left, trails start behind the washroom building. Keep your food in the lockers, not under the awning. And don’t leave anything burning unattended.

— Not even marshmallows? the woman asked.

Diane hesitated for a fraction of a second.

— Especially not marshmallows.

They laughed and headed back toward their trailer.

A boy shot across the lane on a scooter. Diane called him back without raising her voice.

— Helmet, Leo.

The boy braked, retraced his path and grabbed the helmet hanging from the handlebars. His mother waved to Diane from site forty-two.

Diane knew the regulars, their habits and their small disasters. The ones who arrived every year on the Friday before Labour Day. The ones who always forgot an extension cord. The ones who set out their chairs before they had even levelled the trailer. The ones who needed help and would never ask for it.

The column kept rising.

A white pickup stopped in front of the office.

Étienne got out with a tool bag in one hand. He had let his beard grow since his last visit. Diane noticed, as she noticed everything, but said nothing.

He followed her gaze.

— Still watching the fire?

— Mostly watching the wind.

Étienne studied the flags above the marina. They hung almost straight down.

— There isn’t any.

— Exactly.

The Canadair returned, its roar swallowing the rest. Étienne waited until the aircraft climbed back toward the ridge.

— Morning, Mom.

Diane briefly rested a hand on his arm.

— You’re late.

— Good to see you too.

He smiled. She did too, despite herself.

A shout came from the boat launch. A man had dropped the jockey wheel on his trailer. Étienne set down his bag.

— Coming.

— You just got here.

— That’s what I said.

He crossed the lane before she could answer.

Diane watched him crouch beside the trailer, slide a chock beneath the axle, then show the owner how to free the wheel without bending the tongue.

He had always been like that: more comfortable with an open problem than a closed conversation.

Beyond him, the smoke kept growing.

• • •

By noon, the campground had recovered its usual noise.

Car doors. Coolers. Bicycle pumps. Children running from one site to the next. An old rock song playing from a radio beneath an awning. At the marina, Curtis was lining up three personal watercraft in front of a banner bearing the name of his dealership.

Owen Kessler, in a white shirt and dark sunglasses, leaned against his enormous motorhome as though posing for a catalogue.

— What am I supposed to say? Owen asked.

— Nothing. You’re living the dream.

— Can I live the dream while opening a beer?

— After the boat shot.

A girl with her hair tied in a ponytail walked behind them carrying a backpack. Curtis spotted her on the monitor.

— Zoé! Out of the shot!

She took two steps back, then crossed behind Owen again, waving both arms.

— Zoé.

— I’m not in the shot anymore.

— Where are you going with that?

Ana and Milo were waiting near the trail, one with a water bottle clipped at her waist, the other with a camera around his neck.

— Getting ready for tomorrow.

— Tomorrow what?

— The old bridge.

Curtis lowered his sunglasses.

— What old bridge?

A dry voice answered behind him.

— The one that’s been closed long enough for teenagers to find it interesting.

Judith Pike had stopped in the shade of a poplar. A retired television journalist, she held an enamel mug in one hand and a book in the other. At seventy, she still looked at people as though they had just made a statement she intended to fact-check.

Zoé rolled her eyes.

— We’re not driving a truck across it.

— That is exactly the kind of sentence people say before they need a truck, Judith said.

Curtis looked at his daughter.

— When are you back?

— Before dinner.

— Phones charged? You stay together? You text me from the lookout?

— Yes, yes and yes.

Judith set her mug on the nearest picnic table.

— Past the lookout, there’s almost no cell service.

Curtis shrugged.

— It’s Friday. They’re going for a hike, not crossing Antarctica.

Zoé kissed her father quickly on the cheek.

— We leave tomorrow morning.

— Seven-thirty at the marina.

— Why?

— Because I’m your father.

— Scientific argument.

Judith picked up her mug.

— Not very scientific, but rarely negotiable.

Zoé led Ana and Milo back toward the campsites. Curtis turned to his camera.

— Let’s go again.

A few metres away, Diane watched the teenagers until they disappeared behind the trailers.

Then she looked up at the column.

It had thickened.

• • •

At two o’clock, Diane removed the box of matches from the display at the office.

Noah Alvarez came in with two bags of ice over one shoulder. He dropped them into the freezer and read the notice Diane had just printed.

— “Immediate ban on all open fires.” Even raised fire pits?

— All of them.

— People bought firewood this morning.

— Refund them.

Noah contemplated the stack of dry wood against the back wall.

— That’s where our best margins are.

— They’ll burn better next year.

— What about the fireworks?

Diane looked out the window. On the beach, a child had just picked up a piece of bark so dry it crumbled between his fingers.

— Cancelled.

Noah whistled through his teeth.

— Now we’re looking at civil war.

— Put up the notices before they have time to form a government.

He left.

Diane called the regional wildfire service. A recorded voice asked her to hold. On the computer screen, the official map still showed the fire at a comfortable distance: northern flank contained, southern sector under observation.

Music that was far too calm played through the receiver.

Étienne walked in without knocking and set a broken hinge on the counter.

— The shed door’s still holding, but it’s not happy about it.

Diane covered the speaker with her palm.

— Fireworks are cancelled.

— Figured.

— Noah’s going to be eaten alive.

— We can replace them.

— With what?

— A drone show.

Diane stared at him.

— You keep one of those in your truck?

— No. Malik Desrosiers. He’s in Clearwater. Shows, aerial photography.

— And you know Malik Desrosiers.

— Mostly I know his phone number.

As if he had heard his name, Curtis backed into the office, absorbed by his phone screen.

— The light is perfect. Even with the smoke, it gives everything incredible depth.

He finally looked up.

— What are you smiling about?

— The part where you pay for it, Diane said.

Étienne explained: no pyrotechnics, a few simple formations over the lake. Malik could come the next day if he judged conditions acceptable.

Curtis put both hands on the counter.

— Can I film it?

— As long as nothing burns.

— My logo?

— No.

— A stylized personal watercraft?

— Curtis.

He raised his hands.

— Fine. I’m paying.

The hold music stopped. Diane picked up the receiver.

An operator confirmed that the wildfire remained under observation. No special order for the Alder Lake sector. Maintain normal precautions. Watch for updates.

— Normal, Diane repeated.

— Sorry?

— Nothing. Thank you.

She hung up.

Étienne was looking at the column through the window.

— What did they say?

— Nothing new.

— The column did.

• • •

By late afternoon, red notices had appeared on bulletin boards, washroom buildings and near the water taps.

OPEN-FIRE BAN

Noah stapled them up while campers read over his shoulder.

— Even in the fire pits?

— Even in the fire pits.

— We paid for wood.

— Diane will refund you.

— What about the marshmallows?

Noah pointed toward the community building.

— Seven o’clock. Giant campfire.

A boy frowned.

— A fake fire?

— High-definition fire.

— Is it hot?

— If you sit close enough to the projector.

The boy burst out laughing.

Noah continued his rounds. He knew which child was allergic to peanuts, which couple always argued while setting up the awning, which camper refused to read a sign before asking what it said.

Near the dock, Mara Singh was helping her father, Gabriel, down a gravel slope. He moved slowly with a cane, his legs stiff; a pale scar disappeared beneath the hem of his shorts.

— We should’ve taken the other way, Mara said.

— The other way is for tourists.

— We are tourists.

— Speak for yourself.

He stopped in front of the notice.

— No fires.

Mara followed his gaze toward the column.

— You know this area?

— Well enough not to like what I’m seeing.

Judith joined them, a small grey device in one hand.

— What are you seeing?

Gabriel pointed toward the ridges.

— The column’s going up too straight. The air is pulling upward.

Mara looked at Judith’s device.

— Satellite phone?

— An old journalist’s habit.

— Does it work out here?

— Better than cellphones when the sky is clear.

Gabriel gave a humourless laugh.

— It won’t stay clear for long.

Judith opened the antenna.

— According to whom?

— My legs.

Mara gave him a look.

— Dad.

— They’ve known enough fire to get suspicious before I do.

Judith looked toward the old road disappearing behind the trees.

— And that area?

Gabriel followed her gaze.

— Old maps can inspire too much confidence.

— The old bridge?

He planted his cane in the gravel.

— I wouldn’t treat it as a road.

Mara put a hand on his elbow.

— We came here to rest.

— Then stop asking questions.

A message appeared on Judith’s phone. She read it twice before slowly folding the antenna back down.

— What does it say? Mara asked.

Judith slipped the device into her pocket.

— That the fire is still under observation.

Gabriel looked at her.

— That’s not what you just read.

Judith held his gaze.

— Not exactly.

• • •

The wind shifted at about five-forty.

At first it was only a shiver across the surface of the lake. Boat wakes changed angle. The flags at the marina suddenly filled toward the north. A poorly secured patio umbrella rolled three metres before a camper caught it.

Then the smell arrived.

Not campfire smoke. Something drier, more bitter, working its way between the trailers and settling at the back of the throat.

Conversations on the beach slowed.

Curtis looked up at his banner.

— That ruins the sound.

His videographer stopped recording.

— The wind’ll die down.

— You a meteorologist now?

Owen patted the side of his motorhome.

— One good rain and this is over.

Judith, sitting at her table, barely looked up.

— There’s no rain in the forecast.

— Clouds make rain, Owen said.

— Not all of them.

Mara closed the windows of her trailer. Her father stayed outside, cane planted in the gravel.

Noah was chasing towels ripped from clotheslines.

Étienne climbed onto the shed roof to check an antenna. From up there, he saw the whole column for the first time.

It was no longer smooth. Its summit was spreading in layers, dirty white above, almost black at the base. The mass had begun to eat the blue out of the sky.

Diane called up from below.

— What do you see?

— Too much.

— Useless answer.

— Then don’t ask such a big question.

He climbed down the ladder. Diane was waiting with her arms crossed.

— The regional service is keeping the alert level where it is.

— I didn’t say anything about the alert level.

— What do you want me to do? Empty eighty-four sites because you don’t like a cloud?

— I want you to prepare people before you need to move them.

— Prepare them for what?

Étienne pointed at the sky.

— What we don’t know yet.

Diane pressed her lips together.

— We don’t panic three hundred people on a hunch.

— We don’t protect them with a formula either.

The wind dropped a handful of ash onto the metal roof of the office. It crackled like dry rain.

Diane picked one flake from her sleeve. It collapsed between her fingers.

— Not yet.

Étienne looked at the black smear on her skin.

— That’s always what you say before you decide too late.

She lifted her head.

— And you always decide before you know who’s going to pay for it.

He fell silent.

The words had found their mark.

Above them, the cloud mass kept swelling.

• • •

At seven o’clock, Noah had turned the community area into an improvised theatre.

The giant screen filled an entire wall. A campfire played on a loop, burning without heat: red flames, perfect logs, sparks rising into a night that did not exist around them. Families had settled in with blankets. Children held marshmallow skewers over an electric heater.

— Tastes the same, Noah announced into the microphone.

— Liar! someone shouted.

— It’s the spirit that counts!

Laughter rolled all the way to the beach.

Diane watched the crowd from the back. No campfires. No fireworks. And yet people had gathered.

Étienne came to stand beside her.

— See? You can replace things.

— A screen doesn’t replace a fire.

— No. It gives people a reason to come out of their own corners.

Curtis arrived with his videographer.

— Malik’s confirmed for tomorrow night.

— Has he seen the conditions? Diane asked.

— Says he’ll evaluate them when he gets here.

Étienne nodded.

— That’s what he should do.

Farther away, Zoé, Ana and Milo were comparing flashlights and water bottles for the next day. Curtis spotted them.

— Seven-thirty at the marina.

Zoé lifted a hand without turning around.

Judith approached her.

— A locator beacon?

— My phone.

— That’s not a locator beacon.

She took a small orange whistle from her pocket.

— Three blasts if you get lost.

Zoé took it.

— And who’s going to hear it?

— Someone looking for you.

Zoé clipped the whistle to her pack. Curtis looked away.

Diane missed none of it.

On the giant screen, the flames kept dancing without heat.

Behind the wall, the real sky was darkening.

• • •

The improvised show ended after nine.

Families returned to their sites. Children protested, then fell asleep before their parents had even zipped the screens shut. One last personal watercraft was hauled onto its trailer. Lanterns came on beneath the awnings.

Above the lake, the cloud now hid part of the stars.

Diane walked down to the marina. The surface was almost black; a few lights trembled on the water. Far away, the base of the column glowed now and then, not like a visible flame, but like an ember buried behind layers of smoke.

Étienne joined her carrying two coffees.

— You didn’t ask if I wanted one, Diane said.

— You would’ve said no.

She took the cup anyway.

They stood side by side.

— You’re leaving Tuesday?

— That was the plan.

— Plans change a lot with you.

— With everyone.

— Not in the same way.

He took a sip.

— Are we talking about work, or something else?

— We never talk about anything else.

A radio crackled inside the marina office. Curtis had forgotten to turn it off. A voice mentioned the rapid growth of the convective column above the wildfire. The next term vanished in static.

Diane stepped closer.

— What did she say?

Étienne turned the knob. The voice returned, clearer.

— ...possible formation of a pyrocumulonimbus, a thunderstorm cloud generated and fuelled by the intense heat and convection of a wildfire, with smoke and water vapour from the fire contributing to its formation. Residents in the area should continue to monitor official updates...

Curtis appeared in the doorway, barefoot.

— A pyro-what?

— Pyrocumulonimbus, Étienne repeated. A thunderstorm the fire is making for itself.

Curtis looked at the black mass.

— Does it make rain?

— Sometimes.

— Good.

— Not necessarily where you need it.

The radio crackled again.

Diane tightened her grip on the cup.

— The authorities haven’t changed the alert.

Étienne looked at her.

— The cloud won’t wait for them to.

A very distant rumble crossed the valley.

Curtis smiled.

— There’s the rain.

Gabriel was making his way slowly up from the dock. He stopped dead.

— No.

Everyone turned toward him.

He raised his chin.

— Too dry.

The sky remained silent for several seconds.

Then white light twisted inside the smoke.

Not above it.

Inside it.

Lightning burst from the cloud like an inverted root reaching for the ground. It lit the ridges, the lake, the marina and the hundreds of roofs across the campground.

No one spoke.

The thunder arrived later, enormous and out of sync, rolling from one mountain to the next.

Diane looked at the column.

The last weekend of summer had just become something else.

• • •

END OF EPISODE 1

Next: Episode 2 — The Storm Without Rain

A year, almost to the day, after leaving Sherbrooke alone for the first time, Raymond arrives in Percé by Route 132, hugging the coast, late in the afternoon. Earl follows behind in the pickup, the way he has for this whole last stretch of road since Trois-Rivières. They no longer need to arrange meeting points on a forum; Earl just follows, and Raymond, rather than watching the landscape go by, checks the rearview mirror every so often to make sure the headlights are still there, a little behind, at the same distance they’ve kept for hours.

They’ve each kept their own vehicle — Earl his pickup, Raymond his van — less for lack of room than by a tacit agreement: each keeps a place of his own, even after all this time.

The village shuts down early in October. The few restaurants still open post full or closed signs, and that suits them fine: neither one wants a dining room, a menu, a server who’d ask where they’re from. They park at the belvedere, in the nearly empty lot, the two vehicles side by side the way they do now without thinking about it, and they eat sitting on the pickup’s bumper — bread, the cheese Earl likes and that Raymond buys now without having to remind himself, a handful of olives picked up on impulse in Rimouski. Earl passes half a sandwich to Raymond without a word, and Raymond takes it without a word either — a gesture that, a year earlier, would have called for an apology just for existing. Earl watches Raymond chew, long enough that Raymond looks up and meets his eyes, and they stay like that for a second before both turning toward the water.

The rock appears to them one last time before night falls completely — a dark mass at the far end of the bay, barely denser than the sky darkening around it. Neither says anything. They watch it disappear into the dark the way you watch something you know you’ll find again tomorrow.

Earl says it’ll be cold tonight, and climbs back into the pickup without shutting the door right away — the window stays half down.

— Motel by the wharf’s got rooms, he says. Saw the sign coming into town.

That’s not a question either. Raymond searches his memory of the year for one single night either of them proposed this — Drumheller, Medicine Hat, Rimouski, always the two vehicles, never a bed shared unless the lack of anywhere else forced it. He can’t find one. Nothing tonight is forcing it.

— Good idea, Raymond says.

The room smells of electric heat and a carpet that’s seen plenty of passing travellers. A bed, a bedside lamp, a curtain that doesn’t quite close over the parking lot. Neither says that after a year, after all those nights kept apart by a few metres of asphalt, this is the first time they’ve slept under the same roof. There’s nothing to say about it.

Earl turns off the lamp. Raymond, in the dark, no longer has a mirror to check, no distance to measure between two headlights — only the weight of Earl settling into the mattress, and then, almost right away, his warmth crossing the cold sheet between them. Raymond doesn’t move toward him. He stays on his own side of the bed, feeling that warmth gain ground on its own, without his having to make a move for it. Earl falls asleep first, almost at once — his breathing changes, thickens, then a light snore sets in, uneven, entirely without grace. Raymond listens to it for a while in the dark, and doesn’t hear a flaw in it. He doesn’t need to move closer, or to quiet the sound: it’s enough that Earl is asleep, right there, for the whole room to change what it means. Outside, the wind picks up a little; in here, the radiator ticks against the wall, and Raymond falls asleep in turn, without having had time to think about it for long.

* * *

A year ago, Raymond left Sherbrooke alone. This morning, he wakes up in the motel room, the light still off, Earl asleep beside him — a novelty in itself, after all this time, not waking up alone.

It’s still dark. He gets up without turning on a light and fills the thermos — the one he bought to replace Michel’s original, lost somewhere between Trois-Rivières and Quebec City over the course of the year, same model, same rust colour. The coffee pours in the dark, without a sound. He doesn’t wake Earl, who sleeps on soundly. Unlike Drumheller, nearly a year before, it isn’t one vehicle parked next to another this time — it’s a bed, a room, a shared wall, and no one had to suggest it twice.

Outside, the air grips him all at once — the real cold of October in the Gaspé, not a discomfort, a cold that wakes you up, that confirms you’re here, alive, present in your own body. Raymond breathes it in once, twice. He’s known this air since before Michel — a summer at fifteen, a motel room in Percé with his parents, his mother saying the sea smelled of iron. He hasn’t smelled it in almost fifty years, and he recognizes it anyway — it still carries the dust that never quite leaves.

The door of the room opens. Earl steps out in his boots, no jacket, as if he’d decided the cold wasn’t his problem this morning.

— Coffee, Raymond says. Not a question.

— Yeah.

They walk to the edge of the belvedere, two steaming cups, unhurried. The rock is still a black mass against a sky just beginning to lose its night — not red, not yet, something between the two with no simple name. Below, the St. Lawrence makes no waves here — it makes a steady sound, a breathing too large to belong to any living thing, that started before them and will go on after. Somewhere to the left, a gull cries, then another, before it’s properly light out.

Raymond drinks a mouthful. The taste brings back nothing specific — except that the last time he drank coffee alone, standing, outside, in the cold, it was against the side of the van in Medicine Hat, a year before. He’s not alone anymore. That’s all the coffee teaches him, this morning.

The rock slowly pulls itself out of the dark. This impossible mass, riddled by time, capped with layers harder than the rest — the same stone, elsewhere, a few million years younger than the badlands’. It’s been losing matter forever. A section collapsed into the river over a century ago. Another will fall someday, no one knows when. It goes on being Percé Rock by losing, every year, a little more of itself.

Earl says nothing for a while. Then:

— Changes fast, the morning, out here.

— The sky’s always done that, Raymond says. It’s just that before, nobody was looking this close.

Earl nods, and there’s no telling whether he took the line as a remark about the light or about something else. Raymond doesn’t clarify. There’s nothing left to clarify, not since last year. The silence about the sky has changed meaning without ever changing shape, and this morning, like every morning since, neither of them needs to bring it up again for it to stay true.

Earl looks at the sea for a long time, without saying anything.

— They’re not gonna stop, he says finally. Nobody wants to be first.

— No, Raymond says. We opened the tap all the way. We’re not steering the flow anymore.

Raymond looks down at the river, which never stops moving. He thinks — without saying it, because there’s no one to say it to, except maybe himself, in the silence of the morning — that the human species took a long time to understand it controlled almost nothing of what happened over its own head, and that it went ahead and touched it anyway, groping, like an apprentice who never saw the sorcerer work the whole trick through, and who now has to keep going, alone, without knowing where it stops. There’s no real way back anymore, he understands, except toward worse. This isn’t an enemy they’re facing, here, on this railing. It’s a choice someone else made, somewhere, one day, for everyone at once — and that now has to be carried, for lack of a better one.

The light rises all at once, the way it always does at the last moment, after all that time when it seemed not to move at all. The rock turns grey, then ochre, then something not far from the colour the badlands had at five in the afternoon, a year before, a continent away.

— Still beautiful, Earl says.

He turns to Raymond, for a second, before looking back out at the water. He doesn’t say what he means. The still contains everything — the sky that isn’t quite the same anymore now that they know what’s been done to it, the years spent holding the line, the two men they weren’t supposed to become. Still, in spite of everything. Still, all the same.

The dimness draws back around them, slowly, while Earl’s hand finds Raymond’s on the railing, without looking, the way you find something you knew was there. Raymond doesn’t move. The two hands stay, resting on the cold railing, while the day finishes rising.

Neither says anything. The rock keeps eroding beneath them, imperceptibly, the way it always has. The river keeps its sound going. The gulls have gone quiet, or maybe no one can hear them anymore, now that the day is fully up.

The world, below, stays immense — the river swallowing more carbon than it should be able to hold, the rock, the sky that no longer quite belongs to anyone. On the cold railing, Earl’s hand stays on his.

THE END

“It is an unpalatable truth that unless we can succeed in greatly reducing CO₂ emissions we are headed for a very uncomfortable and challenging climate future, and geoengineering will be the only option left to limit further temperature increases.”

— Professor John Shepherd, Chair, Royal Society Geoengineering Study (2009)

Author’s Note

This story uses solar geoengineering as a work of speculative fiction. Its true subject lies elsewhere: what become of love, grief, and hope when the world itself enters an age of transformation.

At its heart, it is the story of two men who learn to love again.

Mary Gauthier — Mercy Now

Previously, on SONAR Fictions : Earl and Raymond collected samples near a pond outside Drumheller. On the radio, the government of Canada acknowledged the existence of solar radiation management trials conducted since 2019. Earl answered with two words that didn’t quite say what they were answering to — Me too. Back in Red Deer, he tried to call his daughter Stephanie, without managing to finish the gesture.

* * *

Earl sits in the truck, engine off, in the driveway of his garage in Red Deer. The house is in front of him, dark, no lights on. He doesn’t go in right away.

He looks at the phone sitting on the passenger seat, next to the Folger’s can he still hasn’t emptied. He dials Stephanie’s number. He hangs up before the first ring. He dials again.

— Dad.

— Stephanie.

A silence. Not an awkward silence — a silence that’s waiting.

— You never call on a Tuesday night, she says.

— Got something to tell you.

She doesn’t answer right away. Something in the way he said it — slower than usual, almost careful — makes her tighten her grip on the phone. Earl looks at the house, the kitchen window, the black rectangle where Linda used to leave a lamp on even in summer.

— I’m heading out to Quebec, he says. Tomorrow, or the day after. Going to meet someone.

— I know, Dad, she says, softer than usual.

— You don’t know who yet.

— I know, she says. I’ve always known, Dad.

Earl closes his eyes. He doesn’t ask since when. He doesn’t ask how. There are questions you ask to learn something, and there are questions you ask only to put off the moment you no longer have the right to turn back. This one belongs to the second kind, and Earl knows it well enough to let it go.

— Mom knew too, Stephanie says. She never talked to me about it. But I know she knew.

— I know.

— It’s okay, Dad.

Two words. Earl takes them the way you take something too hot to hold — quickly, then you set it down, then you pick it back up again because you have to carry it somewhere eventually.

— What’s his name, Stephanie asks.

— Raymond.

He doesn’t add anything. She doesn’t ask for more.

* * *

Four days later, Earl’s truck pulls up in front of a triplex on rue de Vimy, in Sherbrooke. Raymond heard it from the kitchen before he saw it — that six-cylinder rumble with a muffler that should’ve been replaced two years ago, the same sound that had been in his ears the whole drive out to the pond, a few days before. He’d have recognized it anywhere, now. He doesn’t go to the window. He finishes wiping his hands on his apron and waits for the doorbell.

Earl fills the doorway, too big for the frame, his body still stiff from the road, like part of him was still driving. He’s wearing his work boots, the same ones from Drumheller, and he looks at them for a moment on the hardwood floor of the entryway before taking them off, without being asked.

— Nice place you got, Earl says.

— It was ours, Raymond says.

The extra word hangs between them for a second. Earl doesn’t apologize. Raymond doesn’t take it back.

Earl moves into the living room like a man visiting a place he isn’t sure he has the right to look at. He stops in front of the bookshelf — Michel’s books, sorted by language and then by subject, because Michel read philosophy between shifts in palliative care and never threw anything out. Earl runs a finger along a spine without opening it. That one, I really need to reread someday, Michel used to say, about once a year, in front of the same title, without ever rereading it.

On the small table by the entrance, a stack of mail waits, higher than it should be. Underneath a grocery store flyer, an envelope from the Ordre des chimistes du Québec, never opened, addressed to R. Lemieux. Earl sees it. He says nothing. Raymond sees him see it. He says nothing either.

On the kitchen wall, a calendar is still open to March.

* * *

Raymond had made a stew — something that takes a long time to cook, so he’d have something to do with his hands while he waited. The smell filled the kitchen — browned onion, thyme, the veal stock Michel always made himself and froze in portions, never from a cube. One last portion had been left, right at the back of the freezer, and Raymond had pulled it out that morning without thinking. Raymond had forgotten the house could smell like that. It was a dish Michel loved, one he used to order almost every time they went to his mother’s, before. Raymond hadn’t made it since March. He tastes a spoonful, standing at the stove. It tastes exactly the same. It tastes completely different.

They eat at the kitchen table, not in the dining room — Raymond never fixed the legs on the third chair after it broke, last fall, and he never replaced it either. Two chairs had been enough. They still are.

Earl eats slowly, like a man tasting something new who doesn’t want it to show. He says it’s good. He doesn’t say too much thyme, but Raymond hears it anyway, in his head, in another voice — too much thyme, again — and he smiles without explaining why. He watches Earl’s hands around the fork — the same hands that had scraped at a lichen with a fingernail, a few days before, thousands of kilometres from here.

Earl gets up, goes to rinse his plate at the sink. He picks up the bar of soap sitting on the ledge to wash his hands, without thinking about it, without knowing whose it had been. The smell, ordinary, drifts through the kitchen for a second.

After the meal, Earl stays standing in the kitchen longer than he should, just breathing.

— Smells good in here, he says, not knowing what he’s saying.

Raymond stops, hand on the counter. He goes still a second too long, without knowing why, then wipes down a pot that didn’t need it and changes the subject.

Raymond takes a kraft envelope from the bottom drawer, received earlier that week, one he hasn’t opened in front of anyone yet.

— My colleague looked at our samples, he says.

He spreads the pages out on the cleared table. Earl comes closer, hands in his pockets, like a man who doesn’t dare touch a document he doesn’t understand.

— Sulfur dioxide, Raymond says. A family of particles used for cooling, in theory. The problem is, it doesn’t stay sulfur dioxide. On contact with moisture — rain, skin, anything wet — it turns into sulfuric acid. Not enough to burn. Just enough to irritate. Dry out. Redden.

He takes Earl’s hand without asking, turns the wrist toward the light, thumbs at the cracked skin over the knuckle.

— That, he says. That’s it.

Earl looks at his own hand like it belongs to someone else.

— And yours? he asks.

Raymond raises his own hand, the nail on his index finger still marked with a red line that hadn’t faded since Medicine Hat.

— Same.

They stay like that a moment, the two hands almost touching under the light, neither of them quite making the move to close the gap.

* * *

Earl sleeps on the couch. He’s the one who suggested it, before Raymond had to figure out how to.

The couch is the same beige as the one in his own living room back in Red Deer — the one where Linda used to spend her evenings with her magazines, the one Earl hasn’t sat on since October 2023, without ever deciding not to. He touches the armrest before lying down, one second, the way you touch an electric fence to check it’s off.

On the other side of the hallway, Raymond isn’t sleeping either. The sheets on Michel’s side have been cold for eight months. They’re still cold tonight. It’s not worse than usual. It’s not better either. It’s exactly the same, and that, maybe, is the first thing that’s changed — that it should be the same, on a night when there’s someone else in the apartment for the first time since March.

In the dark, Raymond thinks of a short phrase of Michel’s, one that surfaces without his looking for it: Don’t be back too late. Michel used to say it for nothing — for a run to the grocery store, for an evening out with colleagues from the lab. Tonight the phrase comes back with no one in particular to receive it, and Raymond lets it hang in the room without trying to work out who, now, it might be meant for.

* * *

In the morning, Raymond hesitates half a second in front of the top cupboard — the one where Michel’s favorite stoneware mugs still sit, never given away, never used since March. He opens it anyway. He pours the coffee into two mugs before he’s even heard Earl get up — a gesture he hasn’t made in eight months, done again without thinking.

He rinses his hands before picking up the mugs. There’s still a little lather worked into the soap — a bubble bursts under his fingers, one he wasn’t looking for. For one second, just one, he’s in another kitchen, thirty years earlier, and it’s Michel laughing at something Raymond can no longer hear.

The two mugs steam quietly on the counter. The smell of Michel’s soap. Coffee soaked into the walls after thirty years of mornings. A day late, he understands what had stopped him, the evening before, at the counter. He stays a second too long, palm still damp, before shaking it off.

Earl comes into the kitchen in his socks, his hair flattened on one side. He takes the mug Raymond hands him. His fingers brush Raymond’s wrist in passing — a fraction of a second, maybe unintentional, maybe not.

Raymond doesn’t pull his hand away.

Outside, rue de Vimy is white under a November sky that’s neither overcast nor clear, a flat yellowish-white that Raymond now recognizes everywhere he goes, in Sherbrooke same as in Medicine Hat. He says nothing about it. There’s nothing left to say about it, not since the announcement. The silence about the sky has changed meaning without changing shape.

Earl looks out the window, the mug in both hands.

— I’ll have to go back, he says. Not just yet.

— No, Raymond says. Not just yet.

Neither of them says what not just yet means, in hours or in days. They drink their coffee, standing, in Michel’s kitchen, and for now, that’s enough.

END OF CHAPTER V

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🎵 Johnny Cash — Hurt

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A cover of the original composition by Trent Reznor (Nine Inch Nails, 1994), recorded by Cash in 2002.

Cash was seventy-one when this video was filmed. He would die seven months later. June Carter appears in it too, watching him — she would go before he did. This isn’t a song of despair: it’s the clear-eyed reckoning of a man no longer telling himself any stories. That’s exactly where Raymond is, closing the door on that kitchen.

Previously, on SONAR Fictions : Raymond and Earl met at the Drumheller municipal campground. They compared samples — a seven-year-old work log confirming the same residue — and walked along the Red Deer River. At three in the morning, alone outside, Earl noticed the night sky had lost some of its stars.

* * *

Raymond woke to fog on the driver’s-side window, a brighter rectangle where his breath had melted the frost overnight. Twenty to seven. Earl’s truck was already running, idling, a thin plume of white exhaust rising into the cold air.

Earl knocked twice on the sliding door, no harder than he had to.

— Coffee’s made. Get in, we’re going where I’m thinking.

No explanation. Raymond grabbed his notebook, the sample bag left on the table from the night before, and climbed in.

The cab smelled of coffee, worn leather, a trace of diesel that never quite went away. Earl drove one hand on the wheel, the other resting on the gearshift even though the truck was automatic — a habit left over from some other vehicle, older, long gone.

— Where exactly are we going?

— Gravel road, twenty minutes out. There’s a pond. Used to hunt around there when I was young. If there’s anything to see, that’s where it’ll be.

Raymond didn’t ask anything else.

* * *

The pond sat between two rises, a still sheet of water fringed with yellowed cattails, smaller than Raymond had pictured. Earl cut the engine. The silence that followed had a particular texture — not the absence of sound, but the absence of one specific sound, which took Raymond a moment to place.

— No geese, Earl said, like he was answering a question someone had asked. This time of year, this spot, it ought to be honking up a storm in there. Listen.

Raymond listened. Just a sparrow, far off, and the wind moving through the cattails.

He crouched at the water’s edge and pulled an empty vial from his pocket. The surface carried a greenish film, almost oily, without the usual texture of an algae bloom — too even, too regular, more painted on than grown. He collected a little, sealed the vial, and labeled it in marker: date, approximate location, time.

Earl, crouched on the other side, was scraping at a lichen on a rock near the waterline with his thumbnail. Pale grey, almost white, where Raymond remembered — without knowing why he remembered it, an image rather than a fact — that prairie lichen usually ran toward orange.

— Is that supposed to be more colorful than that?

— Yeah. A lot more.

Raymond noted the discoloration without touching it. That kind of bleaching, in a lichen, had a name he knew without saying it out loud — a family of compounds he’d handled in the lab decades earlier, ones that turned into something else, something more corrosive, on contact with moisture. He said nothing to Earl about it. Not yet.

Earl broke off a fragment and slid it into a Ziploc-style bag, identical to Raymond’s — he’d brought a whole box of them, Raymond noticed, as if he’d known they’d need more than a few.

Michel would have photographed everything, before he even understood what he was looking at.

Raymond pushed the thought away without really pushing it away — it stayed there, at the edge, while he screwed the cap back on the vial.

They worked in silence for twenty minutes, each on his own side of the pond, meeting now and then to compare a sample, without much talk. It wasn’t an awkward silence. Raymond noted, without quite putting it into words, that it was the first silence between them that carried no weight.

* * *

The radio came on when Earl turned the key to get the heater running — CBC Radio One, low, left there from the day before. They were about to pull out when the newsreader’s voice shifted register, that particular flat, neutral tone reserved for official statements.

“The Government of Canada acknowledges that certain solar radiation management experiments have taken place on Canadian territory since 2019, as part of research projects conducted in partnership with international organizations. The Department of the Environment states that the exact scope of this testing is under internal review, and that no conclusions will be released before that process is complete.”

Nothing more. The newsreader moved on to the weather.

Neither of them spoke. Earl took off his cap and set it on his knees, no deliberate gesture to it — the way you do in a church, without thinking. Raymond looked down at his hands. The heater kept blowing, steady. Outside, the wind bent the cattails. The radio went on, another voice, another topic — traffic on the 2, somewhere around Calgary.

Earl didn’t turn the radio off. He kept his hand on the key, not turning it, the engine still idling in neutral.

Raymond looked at the vial of greenish water sitting between them on the bench seat.

— Seven years, he said, mostly to himself. Your notebook already said as much. We didn’t need them to confirm it.

— No.

A pause. Earl didn’t move.

— You carry a thing like that a long time before you find the words for it, Raymond said, his voice lower, not entirely sure anymore if he was still talking about the sky.

Earl said nothing for a moment. The heater kept blowing.

Earl kept his hand on the key, not turning it. His knuckles whitened, for a second, no more.

— Me too, Earl said. I mean — I’ve spent my whole life like that.

He wasn’t looking at Raymond when he said it. He was looking at the radio, or at nothing, his gaze fixed somewhere past the windshield. Raymond said nothing back. There was nothing he could say that wouldn’t, in the saying, force me too to mean only one thing.

Earl turned the key. The engine started.

* * *

The drive back happened almost without a word, but it wasn’t the morning’s silence anymore. Earl drove a little slower than he had on the way out.

At the campground, Raymond’s van was waiting where he’d left it, alone on the nearly empty lot. Earl pulled up beside it and left the engine running.

— I need to get this to an old colleague, Raymond said, lifting the bag of vials. A chemist. Reliable. He’ll know what to do with it, how to document it properly.

— Where’s that?

— Sherbrooke. I have to head back that way anyway.

Earl nodded, hands on the wheel.

— You’ll let me know what he finds.

— I’ll let you know.

— If it’s something — Earl stopped, started again — once you know what it comes to. I’ll come down.

It wasn’t a question. Raymond didn’t treat it like one.

— You’ll come down.

Neither of them said anything more specific. No date, no route, no promise put into words that would have made it more fragile by making it bigger. Raymond got out of the truck and closed the door. Through the window, he raised a hand, brief. Earl raised his, barely.

The truck backed up, turned, disappeared down the campground entrance road.

* * *

Earl drove to Red Deer without turning on the radio.

In his driveway, engine off, keys still in his hand, he sat for a moment without getting out. The house in front of him still had its blinds closed from when he’d left. No one to have opened them.

He took out his phone. Found Stephanie’s name in his contacts, thumb hovering above it.

You and your sky, Linda had said once, laughing, watching him scan the horizon for nothing. You never lied, Earl. You just never said everything. That’s not the same thing.

He sat with his hand on the phone, not moving, like a man waiting for something inside him to make the decision for him.

He started a text instead — easier, he thought, than a voice that might shake. Stephanie, I need to tell you — He deleted it. Started again. Stephanie, I’m heading out to — Deleted that too.

Through the windshield, the evening sky was only just beginning to darken over the neighborhood rooftops. He glanced up at it, for a second, without really looking — a reflex now, since September. Now that the radio had said it out loud, the sky was exactly the same color it had been the day before. Nothing had changed, except what Earl knew, looking at it.

He closed the text field. Dialed the number instead. His thumb stayed above the call button, not pressing.

He sat in the cooling truck, composing in his head a sentence he didn’t yet know how to finish.

END OF CHAPTER IV

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🎵 Brandi Carlile — The Story

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Carlile is openly queer, openly country, openly political. This song is a cry — not of anger, but of accumulated truth finally spilling over. It’s about a face that stops hiding what it’s carried for years. Everything we’ve kept hidden ends up written there eventually. This is the chapter where both stories — SRM and coming out — break at the same moment. The song builds exactly like that.

Previously, on SONAR Fictions: Raymond, a retired chemist from Sherbrooke, has been driving west alone since the death of his husband Michel, in March. In Medicine Hat, he noticed an unknown deposit on his van and began corresponding, on a travelers’ forum, with a man named Earl — a retired Alberta oil-patch worker, a widower for three years, a man who’d spent his life keeping quiet about who he was. In his last message, Raymond wrote Michel’s name. And the word husband. Earl read it four times. Then he closed his eyes.

* * *

Drumheller, November 2026

Highway 1 ran west in a single flat line, between the harvested fields and a sky that wasn’t changing its nature — that same flat whiteness from Medicine Hat, tinged yellow now, as if the campground had never really ended. Four and a half hours, the app had said. Raymond had learned not to trust time estimates since Michel was no longer there to contradict them, from memory, and be right.

He stopped at the Husky in Brooks for a coffee he drank standing up, leaning against the van, in the half-empty lot. Took out his phone. The prairie_earl_AB thread had lit up again overnight — seven new replies since the Alberta Health advisory on suspended particulates. Glasgow, Montana. Saskatoon. Fort McMurray. Same deposit, same unanswered questions, four hundred kilometres apart from each other. This wasn’t a campground thing anymore. It was a region.

He got back in the van. The road dropped into the badlands without warning — a long ribbon of asphalt suddenly plunging into a landscape nothing before it had announced: striped hills, ochre and grey, carved on timescales that Raymond, professionally, knew how to name and still couldn’t quite grasp. Beneath the lower cloud layer clinging to the bottom of the valley, the sky recovered, for two or three kilometres, its ordinary colour — a pale blue, almost timid, as though something, here, had briefly forgotten to do its job. Then the road climbed back out of the layer, and the yellow-white closed back over it, as tight as a lid.

Michel would have loved this valley. Michel would have wanted to stop, take pictures, read the historical plaque about oil and fossils out loud. It was a conversation they’d had once, in February 2025, bent over a road map spread across the kitchen table — Michel tracing an imaginary route across Alberta with his finger, explaining, with the enthusiasm of a man who wasn’t a chemist and who always laughed a little before the end of his own sentences, as if he already knew the punchline, that oil was very old life, compressed, turned to black dust, and that the carbon pulled out of it ended up somewhere, in the air, doing something. We’re going to finish by moving, he’d said that day, with no apparent connection to what came before, one finger drifting toward the kitchen window. Raymond hadn’t understood right away that he was also talking about the sky — he wouldn’t really understand until here, on this road, with the word aerosol in his mouth.

He didn’t put the memory into words. He let it pass through, like a sheet of cloud, and kept driving.

The Drumheller municipal campground was nearly empty in November — three sites occupied out of the forty marked on the laminated map at the entrance, a covered cook shelter at the centre, a green metal picnic table with paint flaking at the corners. Earl had chosen this spot. Not his place. He’d written it plainly in his last message: We’ll meet at the campground. Not ready for the house yet. Raymond hadn’t asked.

He arrived in late afternoon, the light already slanting, gilding everything it touched — the hoodoos in the distance, sandstone columns each capped with a stone harder than the rest, standing upright by a logic the eye took a moment to accept; the green metal table; his own hands on the wheel.

Earl’s truck was already there, a white cooler sitting on the passenger seat, visible through the window. Earl himself stood near the cook shelter, a cap stained grey pulled low over his forehead. A bigger man than Raymond expected, shoulders still broad despite his age, the hands of a man who’d worked with them for a long time.

Earl came down toward him without hurrying. Held out his hand.

Raymond hesitated the length of a breath before taking it — not reluctance, more the brief vertigo of a man who’s spent a long time looking at a door from the outside and now has to decide whether he’s going in.

“Raymond.”

“Earl.”

A handshake. Firm, brief. No embrace — neither of them would have known how to start one. Earl had rehearsed three opening lines on the drive from Red Deer — and forgot every one of them the moment he saw the van turn into the lot.

“Found it easy enough,” he said instead.

“GPS. Easy.”

They stood there a moment, each sizing up the other without showing it, in the ochre light that wasn’t going to last much longer.

Earl had brought soup. He announced it without making anything of it — pulled a dented thermos out of the truck, set it on the metal table, lifted the lid. Split pea. Made the day before, in Red Deer, in a kitchen no one else had walked into in three years to cook anything that would fill the place with a smell. He didn’t put it that way. He said:

“Had some soup kicking around.”

That wasn’t true. Earl served both bowls with an almost ceremonious care, one hand under each. Raymond said nothing — but noticed, without putting it into words, that soup kicking around doesn’t get poured like that.

They ate under the cook shelter, a Big Rock beer for Earl, water for Raymond. The wind picked up in gusts, rolling between the rock formations with a different sound than the open Prairies — caught, held, released, as if the landscape itself was breathing in fits.

“Your thread woke up,” Raymond said, sliding his phone across the table. “Seven more replies since last night.”

Earl read, jaw tight, scrolling with a thumb too big for the precision of the gesture.

“Fort McMurray,” he said finally. “If the old-timers on the rigs up in Fort Mac have seen it, we’re behind on this by a fair stretch.”

“Four towns,” Raymond said. “Four hundred kilometres apart, minimum, at the same time. A deposit that travels like that isn’t local pollution. It’s a deployment.”

“Deployed by who?”

“I don’t know yet. But somebody knows why it’s falling the same way in Glasgow, Montana, as it is in Saskatoon. That’s not an accident.”

Earl set the phone down. Looked at his soup a moment without eating it.

“We’re not just two guys comparing roadside deposits anymore, are we.”

“No,” Raymond said. “We’re not just that anymore.”

After the meal, the samples came out — each their own, set side by side on the green metal, like two pieces of evidence in an investigation nobody had officially opened. Raymond’s Ziploc bag, labelled in his cramped handwriting: Medicine Hat, Nov. 4 2026, 6:00 a.m., left mirror. Earl’s Folger’s coffee can, empty of coffee for a long time, never labelled.

Raymond opened both containers on the table. Looked. Touched, with the tip of his finger, first his own sample, then Earl’s. Brought it to his nose for a fraction of a second, professionally, without thinking about it.

“Same texture,” he said. “Maybe the same substance. Maybe a family of related substances. I can’t confirm without a lab.”

“But you think so.”

“I think so.”

Earl nodded, once, the way you acknowledge a diagnosis you’d been expecting without wanting it.

Then he went back to the truck and returned with a black-covered notebook, stained with engine grease at the corners, its spine worn soft by twenty years of back pockets and dashboards. He opened it to a page marked with a faded yellow Post-it, still holding on more out of habit than glue.

“This,” he said, sliding the notebook toward Raymond. “September seventeenth, 2019.”

Raymond read Earl’s handwriting, dense, no flourishes, the handwriting of a man who wrote things down to remember them, not to be read:

Tanks 4 and 7. White powdery deposit, same as the rain on Sept 12–14. Standard cleanup. No WHMIS sheet applicable. Ask GZ. Follow-up: none.

“No WHMIS sheet,” Raymond repeated. “That means nobody, in 2019, had a protocol to identify what this powder was. No safety data sheet. No classification. Nothing.”

“That’s it exactly.”

“Who’s GZ?”

“Day guy. Left the company in 2020, if I remember right. Never heard back.”

“Seven years,” Raymond said, more to himself than to Earl.

“Didn’t put it together till this week. I just wrote it down. That’s how I’ve always done things. You write it down. It’s useful someday or it isn’t.”

Raymond closed the notebook carefully, as though he could still damage something that had already survived seven years in a glove box. He noticed, doing it, a slight redness at the base of his own index fingernail — the one that had touched the sample on the mirror, in Medicine Hat, bare-handed.

“This,” he said, showing his finger. “Since Medicine Hat. Won’t heal.”

Earl raised his own hand. The knuckle of his index finger was dry, almost white, as though rubbed too often against denim.

“Same here. Figured it was just winter coming on.”

“Me too, at first.”

They stayed a while with their hands open on the green metal table, adding nothing more. Two men who had touched the sky with bare hands, each on his own, hundreds of kilometres and seven years apart — and who both knew, now, that it wasn’t just winter.

They walked, once night had nearly fallen, along the Red Deer River, on a gravel path the campground kept up poorly. The sky went out by degrees into that yellowed white that had been following Raymond since Medicine Hat — a colour that didn’t resemble any dusk either of them remembered from their youth.

Earl talked about Linda in fragments, without warning, between silences.

“She made that soup every two weeks. Thirty-nine years. Counted once, for a laugh. Comes out to near a thousand times.”

Raymond said nothing. But something, in the word thousand, moved through his chest before he had time to name it — thirty-five years, himself, and no one left, now, to count the suppers in his place.

Earl stopped in turn, as though the path had handed him back a sentence he hadn’t summoned. You and your sky, Linda used to say, every time she found him outside watching the sunset too long. He never answered. He still didn’t know what to answer.

Further on, without transition, it was Raymond’s turn. Michel came back to him, one line only — A chemist who’s never wrong hasn’t tried hard enough — and this time Raymond no longer knew whether it was his own thought or Michel’s.

Neither one asked the other since when he’d known — known, for himself, for what he was, even before Michel, even before Linda. The question hung between them, as present as the gravel underfoot, and neither picked it up.

Earl caught his foot on a loose stone in the path, a small stumble, the kind a man usually catches on his own. Raymond put a hand on his shoulder — three seconds, maybe four, a steadying gesture, nothing more, the hand of one man keeping another from falling. Earl said nothing. Didn’t stiffen. Didn’t move either — and it was that stillness, more than the hand itself, that lasted.

Raymond took his hand back, as slowly as he’d put it there.

The dam was holding. And it wasn’t.

They walked back to the cook shelter without talking. Earl suggested, putting the empty thermos away in the cooler, that they sleep in their own vehicles, parked side by side on the gravel — the extended cab of his truck, seat reclined, and the sleeping bag he always kept behind the seat, an old Alberta winter habit. Raymond agreed without hesitating, with a relief he wouldn’t have admitted out loud.

At three in the morning, Earl woke to use the campground latrine, a small wooden building half-lit at the end of the lane. Coming out, he didn’t climb back into the truck right away. He stood between the two vehicles, in the dry November cold, head tipped back toward the sky.

The Milky Way was there, as always at this distance from any city — but paler than he’d ever seen it, a diluted streak rather than the dense river he remembered from his childhood in the Prairies, before the rigs, before Linda, before everything. He counted, out of the habit of a man who’d spent his life judging quantities by eye: fewer stars than before. A lot fewer.

He thought of August 2003 — a power outage that had emptied out the northeastern seaboard of America in one evening, millions of people in Toronto, in New York, in Detroit, stepping outside to see, maybe for the first time in their lives, what the sky over Cold Lake gave them every single night without their giving it a thought. The rig crews had laughed about that, come out of their trailers that night too, pointing up — not because their sky had changed, but because, for once, someone else was seeing what they saw all the time. Earl remembered it very precisely — the guys laughing, the coolness of the air, the rare feeling of witnessing something that belonged to everyone at the same time.

This wasn’t the same, tonight. Nobody had cut the power. Something, instead, had been added — poured, dispersed, somewhere above their heads, by people Earl didn’t know and never would, for reasons nobody had ever given him the right to understand.

Somebody made our sky paler, he thought, without the exact words, in that slower language he reached for only when something really mattered. And nobody told us.

He stood there a while longer, still, between Raymond’s van and his own truck, two vehicles parked side by side like two animals sleeping. Then he climbed back in without a sound, careful not to wake a man he’d known for six hours and who was already sleeping as though he’d known him far longer than that.

END OF CHAPTER III

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Soundtrack for Chapter III

🎵 Townes Van Zandt — Pancho and Lefty

Two men. Two fates crossing paths. Two ways of staying faithful to someone who’s gone. Van Zandt himself used to introduce it as “a medley of my hit” — with that same bittersweet humour that’s exactly the tone of Drumheller. The Heartworn Highways version, solo guitar, in someone’s living room, is the right one. Raw. Alive.

Previously, on SONAR Fictions : Raymond, retired chemist, widowed since March, arrived in Medicine Hat in November in the van he and Michel had outfitted together. On the side mirror, a fine white powder he can’t identify. He takes a sample. On a VR Nomads 55+ — LGBTQ+ Friendly forum, he posts what he saw. One serious reply comes in, at 11:14 PM — from a man named Earl, in Red Deer, who says he’s seen the same thing.

Red Deer, November 2026

The truck was cold.

Earl Sutherland hadn’t noticed right away — he’d come back from the IGA with two bags of groceries, set the bags on the passenger seat, started the engine without thinking, and it was only when he put his hand on the steering wheel that he felt the cold in his palms. He’d left his gloves on the counter. Again.

Linda would have said something. Not a reprimand — Linda didn’t do reprimands, it wasn’t her style. Just a look. The kind of look that says you’re doing it again without saying you’re doing it again. Earl had spent thirty-one years learning to read those looks, and now that there were no more of them he left his gloves on the counter.

He let the engine run. Waited.

The IGA parking lot in Red Deer was half empty on this Thursday November evening. A few cars under the lampposts, a guy pushing his cart at the far end, the slush on the asphalt reflecting the orange light of the signs. Earl looked through the windshield without really looking. He did that more and more — settling somewhere and looking without seeing, engine running, hands on his knees, until something specific brought him back to the present moment.

Tonight, it was the sky.

He’d been watching the sky above the parking lot for a minute without knowing why. Not a beautiful sky — a city sky, November, dark since four-thirty the way it goes in Alberta in November. But something in the way the lamppost light hit the low clouds. A tint. Not orange the way it usually was, not the normal reflection of artificial light off cloud cover. Something paler. Flatter.

Earl had spent thirty years on oil rigs looking at the sky. Not for pleasure — for work. The sky told you things on the rigs: pressure dropping before a storm, frost announcing equipment problems, the too-bright winter light that meant cold below what the instruments were reading. He’d developed a way of reading the sky that had nothing poetic about it. Purely functional. The sky as measuring instrument.

And tonight, that instrument was telling him something he didn’t yet know how to name.

Setting the grocery bags on the passenger seat, he’d brushed the truck’s hood without thinking — a hand resting one second on the cold metal. He hadn’t thought about it at the time.

He drove home.

* * *

The house was a Red Deer bungalow Earl and Linda had bought in 1998 when the kids were still small — two bedrooms at the front, a finished basement, a double garage for the truck and the rig equipment. Since the kids had left — Stephanie to Calgary, Kevin to Edmonton — and since Linda was gone, Earl occupied the house the way you occupy a space that’s too large: moving always through the same zones, the kitchen, the living room, the bedroom, the garage, the same paths traced through the same rooms, the rest of the house closed like museum exhibits.

In the entryway, on the radiator, Linda’s mittens — knitted some winter he could no longer place, never put away since, never worn by anyone. He passed them every day without touching them.

He put away the groceries. Heated up a can of soup — not because he was hungry, because it was supper time and he’d learned in three years that if you didn’t eat at supper time you didn’t eat. Linda had always cooked. Not complicated things — good things, things that smelled like something when you came in the door. Earl had learned canned soup and sandwiches and occasionally a steak in the cast iron pan that he overcooked because he forgot to watch.

He ate standing up, leaning against the counter.

That was a rig habit — you ate standing up on the rigs, fast, between tasks. Linda had hated it. Earl, we’re at home. He’d sat down for thirty-one years because of that. Now he ate standing up because there was no one to say Earl, we’re at home.

After the soup he took his phone and went to sit in the armchair in the living room.

The armchair was his — had always been his, Linda had the couch, that was their natural arrangement, nobody had decided it. Earl in his beige armchair worn at the arms, Linda on the couch with her magazines. The couch was still there. Earl didn’t sit on it.

He opened the forum on his phone.

* * *

He’d joined the forum six weeks after Linda’s funeral.

Not out of desire for anything specific. Curiosity first — a curiosity he couldn’t have named, a curiosity that had always been there without ever having a direction. He’d typed words into a search engine one December evening, words he’d never typed in his life, and the forum had come up. VR Nomads 55+ — LGBTQ+ Friendly. He’d read for three weeks without joining. He’d signed up as prairie_earl_AB because it was descriptive and didn’t say much about who he really was.

Maybe that was enough to start.

He hadn’t been unhappy with Linda. That was important to say clearly, and Earl said it to himself without trying to make things into something they hadn’t been. He hadn’t been unhappy. But there had been, all his life, something carefully put away in a place he didn’t look at often, and now that he had time to look, he looked.

Linda had known. Not everything — Earl himself didn’t know everything, not clearly, not in precise words. But Linda had known that something in him had never had a place, and she’d chosen to build a life with him anyway, and Earl had never known if that was love or generosity or both or something else entirely. She had paid, without ever saying so, part of the price for what he had never known how to say himself. He’d grieved Linda sincerely. He still did. And he’d joined the forum. Both things were true at the same time, and Earl was used to complicated things that had to stay simple on the outside.

On the forum he’d posted a few messages. Mostly practical ones — questions about winter campgrounds, about winter tires for vans, about generators. People had answered. Men and women from all over the country, in vans or motorhomes, travelling alone or as couples. Earl found himself coming back less for the vans than for the men who drove them.

And then he’d posted about the sky.

It had started in September. He’d noticed the sunsets first — something had shifted in the colour, a white-yellow where there should have been orange. Then the morning light, that diffuse whiteness that wasn’t fog. Then the birds — the snow geese passing two weeks earlier than usual, as if something in the light was telling them a different date than the calendar. Earl had noted all of this without mentioning it to anyone. People in Red Deer weren’t the type to talk about the sky, except to complain about the weather.

He’d posted six days earlier. This is what he’d written:

prairie_earl_AB · 6 days ago

anyone else notice sunsets have changed colour since the summer? less orange. more white-yellow. here in alberta it’s like the sky lost something but i couldn’t tell you exactly what. snow geese went through two weeks early this year. crops around red deer were short this fall, farmers say it’s the summer heat but i don’t know. i’m not a meteorologist. i just spent thirty years outside on rigs and learned to pay attention to what changes. something has changed. just me or you seeing this too?

Twenty-two replies — most indifferent, some curious, none taking it seriously.

Until tonight.

* * *

Earl read the message from chimiste_libre twice.

chimiste_libre · 2 hours ago

What you’re describing is consistent with a modification of atmospheric diffusion spectra. If reflective aerosols are present at altitude — naturally or otherwise — shorter wavelength light scatters more, producing exactly this white-yellow tint you’re observing. I’m working on a surface sample collected last night in Medicine Hat. Nothing conclusive yet. But you’re right to look at the sky. — Raymond. Retired chemist. Sherbrooke, Quebec.

He read it a third time.

There was something in the way it was written — not condescending, not the type to explain the obvious. Just: precise. The man gave a mechanism, a hypothesis, and a concrete fact — the surface sample. A field chemist who had collected something. Earl knew people who collected samples — he’d been one for thirty years, soil samples, drilling fluid samples, gas. You collected when you thought there was something to find. You didn’t collect for nothing.

He had the strange feeling that someone had finally believed him.

Reflective aerosols.

Earl set the phone on the arm of the chair and thought.

He’d heard that term somewhere. An article maybe, or a radio program in the truck. The kind of thing you half-hear, file away without realizing it, and that comes back when something goes looking for it. Aerosols in the stratosphere. To reflect sunlight. To cool things down.

He thought about the storage tanks at the last rig he’d worked — a site forty kilometres northeast of Red Deer, which he’d left in 2022. The tanks sometimes developed a surface deposit after certain rains. A white deposit, slightly powdery. The rig guys called it road dust, cleaned it off and moved on.

Earl had never thought it was road dust.

Medicine Hat. Four hours to the southeast. On the same atmospheric trajectory, if the prevailing winds came from the west the way they almost always did in Alberta.

He opened the forum’s private messaging. Stayed there a minute, thumb above the virtual keyboard. He wasn’t a man of long sentences — he’d spent his life communicating through gestures, tools, physical presence. Written words weren’t his natural space.

He wrote anyway. Short. Direct. The question about the storage tanks, the deposit he’d seen, Red Deer on the same trajectory as Medicine Hat. Read it back.

He hesitated before signing — a hesitation he couldn’t have explained. Added his name at the end, the way the other man had.

Earl.

Hit Send. Maybe it was the first time in fifty years he’d written his own name, alone, to a stranger.

He didn’t know why he’d sent it privately rather than in the public thread. Yes he did. In the public thread there were the sun emojis and the people who said you’re imagining things. He wanted to write to the man who had collected a sample. It was simpler that way.

* * *

He put the phone down. Looked at the living room ceiling — the one Linda and he had looked at from this same living room for twenty-eight years. There was a small water stain in the left corner he’d never fixed and that Linda had mentioned twice a year. He still looked at it out of habit.

He got up to go to bed.

That was when his phone rang.

Not a notification — a call. The number on the screen: Stephanie, Calgary. He looked at the time: ten forty PM. Stephanie never called after eight unless something was wrong.

He answered.

— Dad.

Something in her voice. Not panic — Stephanie never panicked, she’d inherited that from him or from Linda, Earl didn’t know which. But something tight, contained.

— You okay? said Earl.

— Yeah. You?

— Yeah.

A silence. The kind of silence between a father and daughter who have learned to talk without saying much and who both know it should be different.

— I saw the news, said Stephanie. The thing about air quality in Alberta. The public health bulletin.

Earl frowned.

— What bulletin?

— Alberta Health issued an advisory tonight. They’re saying to avoid prolonged outdoor activity for the next few days. They’re talking about unusual atmospheric particulates. It covers the whole central zone — Red Deer, Calgary, Edmonton.

Earl said nothing for a moment. His eyes drifted to the living room window, to the truck in the driveway, to the hood he’d brushed with his hand earlier setting down the grocery bags.

— Dad?

— I’m here.

— You saw it?

— No, said Earl. I didn’t see it.

— They give any numbers? said Earl after a silence. Concentration levels?

— They don’t say. They say of undetermined origin.

Of undetermined origin. Earl knew that phrasing. On the rigs, it meant you knew or thought you knew but weren’t ready to say it officially yet. It was the language of preliminary reports, of people waiting to see which way the wind was going to blow.

— It’ll be alright, he told Stephanie. Thanks for calling.

— Alright? she repeated, and in that word was everything she wasn’t saying — the worry, the distance from Calgary, the dinners she’d suggested and he’d declined, the question she hadn’t asked since Linda’s death and maybe since before.

— I mean I’ll be careful.

— You’re all alone out there, Dad.

— I know.

— Kevin could come next weekend if —

— Stephanie.

— What.

— It’ll be alright.

She let a moment pass. Earl heard her breathing on the phone — his daughter in Calgary, thirty-nine years old, with her own kids now, calling her father at ten forty PM because she’d seen a public health bulletin and Red Deer is where he’s alone.

— O.K., she said finally. But you call me if anything changes.

— I’ll call.

— Promise?

Earl hesitated a fraction of a second — the hesitation of a man who has spent his life promising the minimum so he can keep what he says.

— Promise.

— Sleep well, Dad.

— You too, sweetheart.

He hung up.

* * *

He stood in the living room, phone in hand.

Unusual atmospheric particulates. Of undetermined origin.

He went to the kitchen, took an empty Folger’s can from the cupboard — old rig habits don’t leave — and went out the back door into the yard, leaving it open behind him.

The November cold hit his face all at once.

He ran his hand across the hood of the truck, parked in the side driveway. Rubbed gently. Looked in the faint light from the garage at what remained on his palm.

A nearly invisible powder.

He put it in the can. Sealed it. Went back inside.

Under the kitchen light, he turned his right hand over, palm up.

The skin at the base of his index finger was slightly red. He’d touched the hood earlier setting down the bags — one second of contact, no more. It had been too cold outside to notice anything at the time.

He looked at the Folger’s can on the counter.

Looked at his hand.

In the living room, his phone vibrated.

A forum notification: chimiste_libre replied to your private message.

Earl went and sat in his armchair. Opened the message. Read it.

He read it twice. Three times. Then he set the phone on his knee and sat very still, eyes on the water stain in the left corner of the ceiling, and he didn’t think about anything specific for a long moment — or rather he thought about everything at once, which came to the same thing.

The man from Sherbrooke had written one sentence at the end of his message, after the data, after the technical questions, after his coordinates:

My husband Michel — a nurse for thirty-one years — used to say the same thing about me.

Earl read it a fourth time.

Husband.

Not partner. Not spouse. Husband.

Then he closed his eyes.

END OF CHAPTER 2

* * *

🎵 k.d. lang — Constant Craving

An Albertan who came out an entire generation without ever naming it that way. The song is about a craving that never quite goes away, even after decades spent pretending it wasn’t there. Mark Romanek’s video — the same director who’ll later film Cash’s Hurt — has an austere elegance that suits this chapter of restraint and undeclared hope perfectly.

Chapter I · Raymond

Medicine Hat, November 2026

The rain had started around three in the morning.

Raymond wasn’t sleeping — he hadn’t really slept since March, not continuously, not without waking two or three times reaching for something beside him that was no longer there. He’d heard the first drops on the van’s roof, that light and irregular drumming sound he’d loved since childhood, and he’d thought: Michel would have liked this. Then he’d thought of something else, because he had to.

He got up at five forty. The Medicine Hat municipal campground was quiet — a dozen vehicles scattered across the wet asphalt, mostly retirees, people pushing south before winter made it impossible. Raymond set the water to boil on the small kitchenette burner, dressed in the November cold — the van’s heater took time in the mornings, Michel always turned it on ten minutes before getting up, Raymond had forgotten to do it and now he was cold, cold the way you get cold when you forget the things the other person did without you ever noticing they were doing them.

He opened the van’s rear door to get some air.

That was when he saw the deposit.

Not frost — he knew frost, its hexagonal crystals, the way it caught the light from the campground’s lampposts. Not dew either, too cold for November, too flat. Something else: a thin whitish layer, slightly crystallized, covering the bodywork in a uniform matte. A surface that should have reflected the campground lights and was absorbing them instead. Raymond stepped out in his socks onto the running board — one second, just enough — and dragged his index finger across the metal. Rubbed gently. Looked at what remained on his skin.

A nearly invisible powder. Slightly oily.

He went back inside, made his coffee, sat at the two-person table with his one-person cup, and thought: sulphate, maybe. Something in that family.

He was a chemist. Thirty-two years as a consultant to pulp mills in Quebec — not big chemistry, industrial chemistry, processes, material balances, incident reports. He knew how to read an unknown substance by texture. His professional nose had told him something outside: a faint mineral smell, almost metallic, that ordinary rain didn’t leave behind. He didn’t have the tools to analyze it here, in this Medicine Hat campground at minus four degrees. But he had memory.

He drank his coffee — still too strong, he still hadn’t learned to make coffee for one — and looked through the van window at the other vehicles in the campground. Same deposit on all of them. A white Winnebago motorhome belonging to an Ontario couple — he’d seen them the evening before, the woman with a pug on a leash, the man in a fishing hat in November. An Alberta pickup with a tent trailer at the back. Two or three small vans like his. All of them coated in this white matte that was not snow.

What is that? Michel always said those three words quietly when something seemed off. Thirty years as a nurse had taught him that before worrying, you looked, then you described. Conclusions came after. Raymond heard him still, as if Michel were sitting across from him, a steaming cup of coffee between his hands.

Something in him recoiled, half a second, before the chemist regained the upper hand.

Raymond took a Ziploc bag from the drawer under the bunk — he always kept a supply, old field chemist habit — and went back out. Pulled the van door shut behind him to keep the heat in. Carefully collected, with a coffee stirrer, a sample from the deposit on the left side mirror, where the concentration seemed densest. Sealed the bag. Went back inside.

He stood there a moment, the bag between his fingers, looking at this nearly invisible white powder in the van’s light.

Then he opened his laptop and wrote an email to the general contact address at Health Canada.

He knew they wouldn’t answer.

He’d known it before he started typing. Health Canada’s general contact address led to an automated form that led to an acknowledgement of receipt that led to silence. He’d sent emails to government bodies his entire career and he’d learned to tell the difference between addresses that reached a person and addresses that reached a system. This one reached a system.

He sent it anyway.

Michel would have insisted. Send it. You never know.

It had been Michel’s idea. The van.

Not Raymond’s. Raymond had never been a road man — he was a lab man, a reports man, a procedures man, the same mug in the same cupboard for thirty years. Michel was the other kind: the kind who studied maps for pleasure, who clipped articles about campgrounds in the Maritimes, who had opinions about camper vans before they had any reason to own one.

We spent our whole lives staying quiet, Michel had said one February evening in 2025, the two of them at the kitchen table in Sherbrooke with a glass of red wine each and snow falling outside. We’re going to finish by moving.

They’d bought the van the following autumn. A used 2021 Pleasure-Way Tofino, sixty-eight thousand kilometres on the clock, one previous owner who’d taken it to British Columbia twice and was letting it go reluctantly for health reasons. They’d spent the winter fitting it out — solar panels, memory foam mattress, under-bunk storage, the small two-burner stove Michel had chosen after comparing twelve models for three weeks with a seriousness that amused Raymond because Michel almost never cooked at home.

In the van I’ll cook, he’d said.

Why in the van?

Because in the van, we won’t be able to order Swiss Chalet.

Raymond had laughed. Michel had laughed. They’d ordered the stove.

The departure was planned for October 2026. Michel had retired in June 2024 — thirty-one years as a nurse at the CHUS, emergency first, then palliative care the last ten years, what he called the medicine of truth with a mixture of gravity and gentleness that was exactly what he was. Raymond had taken his in 2022, earlier than planned, because the pulp mill that had kept him for twenty years had just been bought by Toronto interests who had different ideas about what constituted a necessary consultant.

They’d annotated the maps together. Planned the stops. Talked about the Prairies.

You know what fascinates me about the badlands? Michel had said, finger on the map. It’s not the dinosaurs. It’s what they became. The sea recedes, species disappear, bones become stone — and bodies, they become oil. The world changes its nature, Raymond.

— It never stops. Something always keeps going… in another form.

He’d looked up from the map.

— You and I, we continue too.

Raymond hadn’t answered. He was a chemist — he knew exactly how kerogen becomes crude oil, what pressure, what heat, how many millions of years. He also knew what that oil became next: CO₂, heat, a sky coming apart at the seams. The transformation didn’t stop at the pump. It continued, invisible, in the atmosphere above their heads.

Raymond had looked down.

To continue.

As wood becomes ash. As snow becomes water.

But their love?

Michel had said nothing more.

In November 2026, parked at the lookout above the South Saskatchewan River, Raymond was thinking back to that evening. About almost everything, Michel had been right. Raymond would have wanted to be able to tell him so, still.

In March 2026 — seven months before their planned departure — Michel had his stroke.

A Tuesday morning. At home. Raymond was at his desk checking the weather forecasts for their route — he’d taken to this habit since they’d started planning, consulting the forecasts the way you check that the road is still there — when he heard the dull sound from the kitchen. Not a loud sound. The sound of someone sitting down on the floor without deciding to.

Everything after that had been very fast and very slow, and Raymond retained from that period only a series of discontinuous images: the paramedics in the hallway, the fluorescent light of the CHUS emergency room — the one where Michel had spent twenty years —, the doctor speaking in precise words that Raymond heard perfectly and couldn’t assemble into meaning, and later the room, and later still the silence of the apartment.

Michel died on a Thursday evening in March. Quickly, at the end, which was a mercy, the doctor had said. Raymond had nodded as though mercy were something he was capable of receiving at that particular moment.

He had waited six months.

On October 14th he had started the van.

Not because he was ready. Not because it made sense. Because Michel had said we’re going to finish by moving and Raymond couldn’t see any other way to honour that than to move, even alone, even without knowing toward what, even with Michel’s annotated maps spread across the passenger seat like a presence that wasn’t one.

He had checked the tire pressure in Magog.

The day passed the way days had passed since March: slowly and too fast at once, filled with small gestures that took twice as long as they should because Raymond still calculated for two before catching himself. He bought groceries at the IGA in Medicine Hat — a can of soup, bread, cheese, one apple, because Michel was the only one who ate them and he’d bought a whole bag the first week and watched them soften one by one before he understood. He filled the diesel tank. He cleaned the van’s windshield at the station squeegee — a mechanical motion, both hands on the wiper — and had the sudden absurd thought that Michel would have made a joke about the windows being cleaner than the bodywork now.

He laughed. Alone, at a Medicine Hat gas station, both hands on the squeegee.

It still happened.

Around seven that evening he drove to the lookout above the South Saskatchewan River and parked facing the water. The sky above Medicine Hat was white — not cloudy, not overcast. White. That flat, depthless whiteness he’d been noticing since Magog, since the morning he’d left Sherbrooke with Michel’s annotated maps, Michel’s thermos, Michel’s planned route, and the life Michel was no longer there to live with him.

He took out his phone. Found the forum. VR Nomads 55+ — LGBTQ+ Friendly. The thread from prairie_earl_AB, posted six days earlier: Anyone else notice sunsets have changed colour since the summer?

Raymond read the thread three times.

Signed up under the name chimiste_libre.

Wrote his reply — atmospheric diffusion spectra, reflective aerosols, last night’s sample — and added at the end, after a moment’s hesitation: Raymond. Retired chemist. Sherbrooke, Quebec.

Hit Send.

Placed the phone face down on the passenger seat.

There was a Post-it note in the glove compartment.

Raymond had known it was there since Magog — since he’d opened the glove compartment looking for the insurance documents and found it, Michel’s handwriting, that blue ballpoint he always used, the letters slightly right-leaning as though they were in a hurry:

Check tire pressure past Montreal — The Prairies are long.

He’d put it back without really reading it. Had closed the glove compartment. Had looked straight ahead at the 10 toward Montreal and driven two hours without thinking about anything in particular.

He hadn’t opened the glove compartment since.

That evening, parked at the lookout above the river, Raymond opened it.

Took the Post-it between two fingers. The paper slightly warped. The ink barely faded at the edges. The letters in a hurry — Michel who always seemed pressed for time even when he wasn’t.

Check tire pressure past Montreal — The Prairies are long.

Montreal was two thousand kilometres behind him now. He was in Medicine Hat, with a Ziploc bag of white powder on the table and a message on an internet forum that no one had yet taken seriously.

He put the Post-it back in the glove compartment.

The phone vibrated.

prairie_earl_AB sent you a private message — 11:14 PM

Raymond read Earl’s message once. Twice. Looked through the windshield at the black sky above the river. Read it again.

He thought about several things at once, which hadn’t happened since March: the texture of the deposit under his finger, Red Deer on the map — four hours to the northwest —, the question Earl had asked without quite asking it, Michel who would have said answer him tonight, Raymond, not tomorrow morning.

He turned his right hand over, palm up, under the van’s light.

The redness on his index finger had been there since morning. He’d noticed it without really registering it — a field chemist accumulates small skin irritations, it goes with the work. But tonight, under the light, it seemed more extensive than at dawn. Slightly warmer to the touch.

He looked at the Ziploc bag on the table.

Looked at his index finger.

Looked at Earl’s message on the screen.

He began to write his reply to Earl.

Outside, in the quiet Medicine Hat campground, something felt different.

Raymond looked up.

The sky was the same.

The one looking at it was not.

END OF CHAPTER I

Soundtrack for Chapter I

🎵 Colter Wall — Sleeping on the Blacktop

From Saskatchewan, fittingly. An old man's voice in a young man's body — low, slow, dusty. The Prairie road without destination. Silence as a permanent condition. The song of a man who drives so he won't have to stop, and who knows exactly why.